Do you guys ever get the feeling when you’re going somewhere and you’re so lost in thought that you don’t really pay attention to what’s going on until you finally arrive at your destination?
I think I entered the new year this way except I wasn’t so lost in thought but instead I believe the new year came very candidly to me. Sort of in a way where something snuck into the same room I’m in, but I had no idea it was there. 2016 flew by way to quick yet way to slow. Strangely, I don’t know why but I feel like there’s something missing. I guess you can say I’m not all that pleased with how 2016 went for me. I feel as though I wasted too much time this past year which led to a lot of counter-productivity. I think I need to learn to be more mindful of my time and practice discipline. Which is sort of a new resolution for me this year.
I want to be able to cultivate a culture of discipline and ownership in my life because without it, I believe I won’t be able to confront the toil that is needed in order for growth to be obtained.
That’s the hardest part. Facing what’s hard in our lives. I think we all, especially me, love to avoid and run away as far as I possibly can. Truthfully, I’ve done that for many years and I think it’s caused me more damage than actually facing what I need to. And for a while now, I haven’t really been growing. For a long time, I’ve been quite stagnant and it’s been painful. This year, I really want to experience my resolution unfold into reality. And to stop telling myself that I can’t or that I’m not good enough.
If we can tell our children they can dream big, be who they want to be, achieve what they want to do, then why can’t we also say those words over ourselves?
My thoughts control my actions and I think it all starts with attitude. Without the right attitude, I’ve already failed. That’s something I think I really need to work on. As hard as it may be, I feel hopeful and even excited. And I hope along with myself, that all of us can work out the afflictions within ourselves and make beauty out of our ashes.
I know it’s late but Happy New Years!